Thursday, Nov 5

Thursdays aren’t too bad usually because I have more prep hours, but I had to finish making my recup test for Friday during that time, which took a while. The math one was hard to make with all the diagrams and symbols. I had to give a reading recup test at the end of the day during my seatwork hour which was hectic. Half of the class needed to take this test and other half didn’t. So I sent half of my class to be with Jacki since she usually does my seatwork, and the other half who had to take it were with me. We also had less time than usual because our bell for our classes is rung by hand, not electronically. So if they guy (Don Humberto) doesn’t keep track of time, the bell is late. This happened for this hour so my kids had 10 less minutes to work on their test. Some of them didn’t study much plus not having enough time…it was frustrating to me and to them. Then I had some of the students who needed to take the language recup test stay after school to take it during tutorias. They were most of the same kids. Many of them (whether from not understanding the written English or just not really thinking it through) didn’t understand that directions. So I to constantly explain the same directions over and over. I wondered if they had even read the directions at all. After they had finished and left I was spent from the frustration of how recup tests were done, hoping my kids would do well, but knowing for some of them it wouldn’t matter. To be honest, today was a day that I said, “I don’t want to be here. I didn’t go to school for this; I don’t know if I’m doing it right or making sense to these kids…” I’m really not trying to be a downer, but it was an end of my rope moment and I just wanted to be home, even for a few minutes. The rest of the night I just thought a lot and relaxed and got ready for tomorrow.