Monday August 31

Today I just felt off…I don’t know if I had such a great weekend and it was the Monday blahs or I didn’t feel prepared for the day or what was going on. I was just getting very frustrated in my classes with the kids and at myself because I felt like I wasn’t teaching very well; things weren’t flowing. I was already tired by lunch and just wanted to get done with the day.

We played soccer after school! My first time actually playing soccer! Our PE teacher was the trainer for a women’s soccer team in Honduras and so he had us do some drills to warm up. I was okay but really have NO background in soccer at all….hopefully I’ll get better! I have 10 months to do it I guess! After warm-ups we divided into teams and starting playing 10 minute halves. The halves felt so long and I was sucking air like it was my job…I’m so out of shape to do anything, much less play soccer at a higher elevation than I’m used to at home. But it was still fun; my team lost, but we got close to scoring a few times! Kirsty is quite good and was on the other team and scored for them. Just as we were about to get done though Ana twisted her ankle and couldn’t get up. So we had to wait to see how bad it was, ice it, etc. I felt so bad for her, it happening just before we got done with the game. We played on a concrete basketball court though too because the soccer field had too many holes in it so that didn’t help much.

Eventually we all headed back up for dinner and we were starving and didn’t feel like making dinner so we had sandwiches. I have found that the simplest things here like sandwiches and spaghetti taste amazing…maybe because it’s different from the comida tipica or because we’re so hungry or both. Spent the night lesson planning and the cute neighbor kids, Abagail and Luis and their mom Sonia came over and played here for a while. I was just overwhelmed and exhausted from the day that I didn’t really do anything with them and went to bed early. I kinda feel like I came to the end of myself today like God I can’t do this, I don’t know what I’m doing or how to do it (with school and life here) and so I need you everyday; I need to love you and need you everyday. So I’ll just keep being emptied and humble and dependent on God as much as I can.